“No one needs to interpret your love…for you will know by the reaction of those who see it.”
“No one needs to interpret your love…for you will know by the reaction of those who see it.”
“Change is too scary.”
Change is certain. (Our bodies, our circumstances, our friends, our children, our neighborhoods, our minds, our commitments, our views, our desires). When something is changing when we don’t want it to change, the best thing we can do is change our minds and catch up to it.
When we don’t want to face the changes, its because a part of us is addicted to “the old”, and part of us is scared of the unknown. We get too comfortable in our current situation. When you know you’ve done the right thing yet you’re longing for the old thing, it gets confusing. You always have to give your soul time to catch up with your spirit.
Believe this new change is going to be better than what you’re letting go of.
God will not leave you helpless. Whenever you think you’re alone, you’re not alone. He is watching you, watching over you, standing by you, and guiding your every step along the way. He is NEVER late.
God will give you favor and He will make a way for you, but you first have to be happy with where you’re already at. Don’t be afraid things will never change. Be happy, be grateful, and be content no matter where you’re at, because God has a plan…
“Change is impossible for me.”
Sometimes God will call you to do something, and the timing does seem a little confusing as to when it is supposed to happen. Be courageous about it. Be bold and aggressive about it. Be “violent” about it. DON’T be afraid to step out of your comfort zone to find out if you heard God correctly. The kingdom of God has suffered violence, but it was only the violent women and men of God who took back their reign in that kingdom.
Don’t be terrified of what “man” can do to you! Open your mouth and say what God says, not what “man” says. Knowledge of the Word. is valuable. The power of life and death is in the tongue. The Word is your weapon. Its not good enough to just know the Word, you have to learn how to speak the Word – how to live the Word – how to breathe the Word. Let the Word fight your battles for you. Take up your sword and use it to cut the enemy to pieces with The Word!
NOBODY is a failure. The only one who is a failure is the one who quits trying! Don’t let making a mistake be the end of your life. Nobody is perfectly led by the Holy Spirit.
“I don’t want things to change, because I might fail again.”
Delight yourself in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of the heart.
There are some things you wanted so badly that you went out of your way to get it, then once you got it, you wished with all your heart you never had it. If you don’t get what you want, then that means you’re not supposed to have it.
Maybe there’s some things in your life that you’ve been dragging around with you that have been “dead” for a very long time, but you still can’t seem to let go of them. Paralyzing fears such as the fear of hurting someone’s feelings or the fear of being alone stops you from removing that dead weight. You are so much better off to spend some nights alone than to let that person continue to keep poisoning your life.
If God doesn’t move something or someone out of your life when you want it out, its because He has it there for a greater purpose.
The fear of being hurt or of being taken advantage of is paralyzing; it stops us from following where God wants takes us. Don’t let these fears control you. Don’t be afraid of being hurt, because it will happen at some point in your life. Put your faith in God. Say “God I’m going to trust you”… and He will teach you how IF you will stop trying to protect yourself.
And so what if you get hurt? We live with the Healer inside of us anyway. 😉
So STOP trying to take care of yourself and let God be God!
©2013 Learus Ohnine
Let’s face it: we’ve all had a crush on a celebrity at least once at any given point in our lives. Those precious moments when we find ourselves drifting away into a fantasy world of how romantic it would be if we were the love of our idol’s life are priceless. These fantasies make us feel so motivated, so important, and so inspired about life in general. Unfortunately, it’s that rude awakening of when reality sets in is when we realize our fantasy could never happen. Or could it?
A 14-year-old high school student, who went by the last name of Beaulieu, realized her infatuation with her celebrity crush could not go ignored any longer. While frequently attending an entertainment venue called “The Eagle Club” located in Wiesbaden, Germany, she met a man who claimed to be close friends with an old army buddy of this celebrity. Her intense attraction gave her the courage to ask this friend to introduce them. This ambitious fan managed to gain her parents permission to attend a party hosted by this celebrity. On that night in 1959, the star-struck teenager definitely struck her a star. This celebrity was so mesmerized by this fan that he wanted to start dating her immediately. Instant mutual passion started a romance between these two, but with 17 chart-topping songs and 4 hit movies under his belt, the young 9th-grade fan gave up all hope that she would ever become “the one”. In 1966, Elvis Presley proved Priscilla Beaulieu wrong when he proposed to her shortly before Christmas of that year.
In 1978, the 16-year-old Ms. Palzis had just finished shooting a scene in a film when she noticed a poster for the promotion of a 1950’s-style musical. Immediately, this model/actress knew she was going to marry the man who played the leading role. As with all hollywood insider connections, pursuing this actor/singer/dancer would be extremely easy for her. While both of them were on the set of the film “The Experts”, this future Golden Globe Award winner secretly wished to make Ms. Palzis his wife, but was reluctant to tell her because she was already married. A few years later, the two met again. This time, he refused to miss his chance. By the fall of 1991, Ms Kelly Palzis-Preston became Mrs. John Joseph Travolta.
In the mid 1980’s, this Toledo-born teenager had a major crush on this New Yorker from the moment she laid eyes on him while he played the role of a Naval aviator in one of the highest grossing films of the decade. She later went on to pursue her idol after starting her own acting career, making public declarations of her crush on this multiple Golden Globe Award winner. By April 2005, Katie Holmes’ mission became very possible when she met Tom Cruise on the set of “Mission: Impossible 3”, followed by their engagement just eight weeks later.
Lesson learned? Never say never…
© 2013 Learus Ohnine
Over the years, there has been alot of debating going on as to the differences between these two disorders: sociopathy and psychopathy. Some say the two disorders are identical; some say there at several distinctions between the two. Psychologist have been studying both disorders for years, but with their studies have yet to be concluded because of the increased difficulty of getting their subjects to cooperate with them, therefore prolonging the results. As time moves on, more and more pertinent information is being released to the public along with the testimonies of surviving victims that can be used to help protect those potentially at harm’s risk. The more knowledge that is released to the public, the less chances of their premeditated destructive plans succeeding against humanity.
There are indeed several differences between the two. It is important to understand the major difference between the two disorders. Not being able to recognize the most important signs of distinction can result in being the victim of someone with whom you will end up regretting investing your time, your trust, your sanity, and even your life into in the long run.
So let’s move on with a brief list of distinctions between the two:
Intelligence: The sociopath has no regards for the rights, feelings, and safety of another human being, and sadly enough, sometimes no regards for their own safety as well. The psychopath also has no regards for the rights, feelings, and safety of another human being, but they are a wee bit “smarter” than the sociopath in regards to their own safety. Psychopaths are risk takers as well as the sociopath, but the sociopath is more apt to getting caught than the psychopath because they lack the wisdom to see their mistakes in their premeditated plans. A psychopath will think of a plan, will take the risk, examine how close they were to getting caught, and will try to perfect any flaws so as to not get caught the next time they try taking the same risk. The sociopath just keeps doing the same thing over and over again, in the same manner, no matter how many times that method has proved to expose them. The difference here is the level of intelligence: one has it, one does not.
Remorse: The sociopath feels no remorse for the destruction they cause, the feelings they hurt, and the trauma they inflict because their brain is missing the pieces that process emotions in regards to anyone else but themselves. They will imitate what remorse should “look” like, but that does not necessarily mean they feel it. Actually, they cannot feel much at all because of their limited range of emotions. The psychopath will sometimes feel remorse for what they have done after they have been caught mainly because of the fact that they were caught, not necessarily for what they did. Their brains can process that emotion, so it is possible for them to feel remorse after the fact. The difference here is the ability for both to feel: one can, one cannot.
History: The sociopath usually has a past history of problems with making and keeping friends, repeated behavioral problems as a juvenile, poor performance in school during their childhood years, problems with paying child support or anything that requires responsibility and/or accountability on their part. Rebellious in nature, it is their narcissistic attitude that gets them into constant trouble; they feel like they are entitled to everything and anything they want and very seldom have respect for anything that represents authority. The psychopath doesn’t have much regard for authority neither, but may have demonstrated respect for the law (to an extent, of course), had a spotless school and juvenile record, and may have been the most likable person in their social setting growing up as a child. However, the psychopath is more “classy” with how they cover up their mental illness, and this is why they are more successful in those previous areas as mentioned than the sociopath. The difference here is the history of self-discipline: one has it, the other one does not.
Boredom: Neither can stand boredom, however, it is what they do to relieve this boredom is what counts. The psychopath will be able to find constructive ways to relieve themselves from being bored, mainly because they can be highly intelligent creative people… that is, only when they’re not satisfying some perverted urge of theirs. The sociopath will relieve their boredom by causing drama: conflict between friends/coworkers/family, disturbing the peace in society for the heck of it, displaying age-inappropriate behaviors in public for attention, etc. The sociopath does not have the mental stability, the mental capacity, nor the self-discipline to finish what they start. The majority of them never bother to waste time or money on starting something they cannot finish. Causing conflict in someone else’s life for the fun of it is the main preferred source of entertainment for sociopaths. The psychopath can cause drama among their friends/coworkers/family and disturb the peace in society also, but this is more of a byproduct of the selfish acts they do to satisfy themselves and not necessarily intended to be something they intentionally planned to do like the sociopath. A psychopath can actually be entertained by other less destructive means to relieve their boredom. The difference here is their style of enjoyment : one is narrow, one is not.
Hopefully, these difference are enough to get a clear understanding of the difference between the two, and of course, the list is longer than what appears here. Is it possible for a person to be a sociopath AND a psychopath? Sure it is. In fact, some of the differences stated above can be reversed or overlapped in the personality of one person. There is no sure way to distinguish which trait belongs to whom, for that takes time and a lot of energy to invest in getting to know someone before a positive identification can be recognized. In my honest opinion, it’s not worth the risk to find out….
© 2013 Learus Ohnine
… if someone you knew was about to get involved with a sociopath, what would you do? Do you warn the person, hoping the person isn’t too far gone to realize it’s not too late to turn back around? Or do you mind your own business and hope for the best outcome?
For me, I can’t just sit still and watch a blind man (or woman) fall into a ditch. That’s not me.
However, we can never be so sure that maybe warning someone might be the cause of a disaster, whereas the warned person uses this info to their advantage to help facilitate their ulterior motive for the sociopath. That’s not me, either.
Although I have no romantic interest in neither the sociopath or it’s victim, there’s a part of me that will always feel funny knowing what I know and not doing anything about it. If something tragic were to happen, I would never be able to forgive myself.
On the other hand, people can become highly offended when they hear the truth about someone they don’t want to think of in any other light but the way the person has presented themselves. Sociopaths, especially, get highly vindictive when they’ve been exposed. This might backfire if I try to intervene.
If you were in this situation, what would you do?
© 2013 Learus Ohnine
So far, all I have been writing about is on what it would be like if you were involved with a sociopath. Hopefully those mock scenarios were helpful, however, I believe it would be even more helpful to give a few tips on how to recognize a sociopath long before you get too deeply involved with them…
TIP #1: Pay attention to how they talk about women (if it is a man) or men (if it is a woman) in a derogatory way. They sometimes let true feelings slip out when conversing about gender roles. If the person is a male and is always referring to women in some perverted way, this usually means they think of women as sex objects or toys. If they talk down about women, referring to them as the “B” word, and likes to watch women being abused, tortured or raped, run for the hills. If you are a woman, just because he whispers sweet nothings in your ear all day long and yet talks with this negative attitude towards the female species does not mean you are special and he will not want to treat you the same way the minute you do something that angers them. You are only a good woman as long as you are useful to them, and them only. The same goes for a woman who says hateful slanderous things about men in general. She will never respect you as an individual no matter how hard you try to win her over.
EXAMPLE FOR TIP #1:
S-path: I think women are the most beautiful things on this planet. I love them dearly.
Her: You do? Why that’s a nice thing to say. I love men as well…
S-path: Oh really? Great!
(Both watching a movie, non-comedy; scene shows woman getting slapped by a man)
S-path: AHAHAHAHA!! That’s what that b*tch gets! HAHAHA!
(suddenly, S-path’s phone rings)
S-path (looks at caller-ID): Oh not this b*tch again. It’s my accountant. She’s staying extra late at the office to work on my taxes.
(S-path answers call; talks politely to her, then hangs up)
S-path: HA! That b*tch is so stupid! She says she’s got an emergency. Her child fell down the stairs. Dumb b*tch should be at home anyways!
Now think: why on earth would a man who is trying to seduce a woman use this kind of language when referring to other women (especially one that is making personal sacrifices to help him) IN FRONT OF HER?? Notice how his actions do not match up to what he said about women general.
TIP #2: Pay attention to how they respect their parents. When we were kids, it was normal to express our dislikes of how we were raised by our parents while growing up because we didn’t realize at the time that they were raising us in a way that was meant for our own good later down the road in life. For example, we complained about our curfew times, having to do chores, our homework, not being able to stay up late when we wanted to, etc., but it wasn’t until when we became adults and had to apply that self-discipline and responsibility in the real world did we really begin to appreciate that parental discipline. We may not of liked what we had to go through, but we went through it without much of a fuss. If a person brags about how they rebelled against their parents in a sadistic way whenever they tried to discipline them, look out. This usually means they despise restrictions of any kind and have no respect for boundaries, rules, or laws and will retaliate the second they feel restricted by them.
EXAMPLE FOR TIP #2:
S-path: Yeah I loved my mom to death, but I have to tell you a funny story.
Her: Oh, okay 🙂
S-path: There was this one time when she told me I was grounded for bad grades, so I tied all her jewelry in knots, and then I flushed them down the toilet. HAHA isn’t that funny?! She knew who was the boss around there! AHAHA!
Her: um… okay 😐
S-path: Oh yeah, and speaking of which, there was a time when the neighbors told me I wasn’t invited to their birthday party, so I tied a brick around their cat’s neck and threw it in their swimming pool. You should of seen the look on their faces HAHAHA! Oh man! AHAHAHAHA ahh those were the days!
Her: (shrugges shoulders)
If you start to laugh at the sociopath’s sick things they did while they’re recollecting their childhood, they will interpret this to mean you like their sense of humor… and… will also expect you to laugh and enjoy it when they do these same things to YOU!
TIP #3: Pay attention to how fast they talk. Sociopaths talk fast; REAL fast. They do not want to give you time to think about what they’re saying; they just want you to hurry up and see things their way and make a decision in their favor. They encourage you to make decisions irrationally and impulsively. They also don’t stick to one subject for too long out of fear you might start asking questions that they cannot answer ( or do not want to answer) when you’re trying to make sense of what they’re saying. Most sociopaths talk in metaphors and do so in a way that it gives the listener one impression while the sociopath really means something totally different; again this is all to get you to do something rash in their favor.
EXAMPLE FOR TIP#3
S-path: Hey, you’re pretty cool. I could really like you alot. You know that, right?
Her: (giggles) Yeah I know. 😀
S-path: Yeah I’m really tired of going over to my sister’s house. It’s a long travel back and forth from work.
Her: Where does your sister live?
S-path: I have to wake up at 5:30 every morning just to get to work on time.
Her: Oh wow! That’s really early!
S-path: Yeah it is. If I fall asleep by 10:00 the night before, it’s not so bad. You’re lucky. You live close to every place I go to.
Her: Thanks but I just happened to find this place by…
S-path: (interrupts) Say, you wouldn’t mind if I crashed here for the night, would you? I have to get up awfully early in the morning. It’s 9:30pm already. Time sure does fly when you’re having fun, doesn’t it?
Her: Yep, it sure does. Sure you can stay.
(S-path spends the night at her house; they have passionate sex; S-path leaves half of his belongs at her house before he leaves in the morning)
Notice how the sociopath quickly redirects the conversation away from her question about the location of his sister. Why? Because there is no sister. He lives with another woman. This slick sociopath is trying to set up camp in a new woman’s house without officially leaving the present woman he lives with first. Also note how the sociopath starts off with a charming opening line that goes right over the lady’s head. He says “I COULD really like you alot”, not “I really like you alot” or “I DO like you alot”. “Could” is too vague with how it’s used in this sentence and can easily be misconstrued for the wrong meaning, which is what the sociopath is trying to do. Again, the sociopath quickly changes the subject from confessing his “real” emotions to his woes about traveling back and forth to work so the lady won’t have time to really think about what he just said previously, and question it.
In fact, the sociopath is such a fast-talker that she didn’t pick up on his subtle hints about moving in with her because he gave her the impression he wanted to stay only for one night. And, the sociopath’s preferred “weapon” of choice is passionate sex, guaranteed to throw all of her common sense out the window while he’s throwing smoke in her eyes so she can’t see what’s really going on. She doesn’t realize this until after the 4th or 5th night, when he leaves a little more of his belongs each time. The sociopath pulled this trick as if he didn’t want to give her not so much as a choice in the matter; just a sob story and several changes of his underwear, socks, and clothing.
So these are just a few tips and examples of what to look out for when first interacting with a sociopath. It’s kind of difficult to detect when a sociopath is deceiving you when you are all caught up in the euphoria of their charms, until it’s too late. There are many many more tips and examples that need to be pointed out, in which I will write more as I recollect them. Hope this little tidbit is helpful.
(to be continued…)
© 2013 Learus Ohnine
“You and your mate seem to share so many common interests. You both enjoy spending time with each other while appreciating the finer things in life. One of those finer things is enjoying the good company of your mutual associates. Your mate says they value personality above all things and are adamant about the importance of maintaining good friendship. You value the same thing as well…
But lately, you have noticed a change in the way you and your mate’s mutual associates interact with you. These associates seem to act in an awkward way whenever you are around, as if they feel uncomfortable saying even the smallest word such as ‘hello’. You have not done anything derogatory towards them directly, at least nothing that you can recall. Some days they seem moody as if it is painful for them to speak to back to you when spoken to, or, they make strange facial jesters towards you whenever you mention your mate’s name. Consequently, this arouses your suspicions as to why they are acting this way. Your confront your mutual associates about your suspicions to no avail. You then confront your mate about this, who claims they do not have any idea what is going on with your mutual associates.
You also begin to notice something strange about your mate’s behavior at the same time. They seem to prefer to talk to you over the telephone rather than spend time together physically. They suspiciously ask you questions about your whereabouts more often, are more secretive than before with their cell phone, and seem very concerned about what is being said to you about them by your mutual associates.
They seem to want to pick a fight with you over the slightest things at the oddest of times, such as during a dinner or a movie date, and then refuse to be consoled about the situation in spite of all the facts you tell them that discredits their false accusations that cause them to start the argument in the first place. There are times when they will blurt out false accusations about you in front of certain mutual associates, then afterwards pretend as if nothing they said or did ever happened. Also, you notice your mate seems to change their attitude towards you in a derogatory way depending on which mutual associate is nearby at the time, but then changes back into their loving self with you behind closed doors. Sometimes, it even seems like your mate is mimicking this same mutual associate identically in dialog, body language, and personality…
Oddly enough, you began to question the change in personality with your mate whenever certain mutual associates are present. As usual, your mate becomes highly irritated with the fact that you would dare to question them. You explain to them why you are questioning them, in which they reply with answers that has nothing to do with your original question. Your mate seems to ramble on and on forever about nothing related to their behavior until they manage to change the direction of the discussion off of anything focused on themselves. Whenever you try to intervene in the middle of their ramblings with your original question about their behavior, they switch the focus onto your behavior instead of focusing on their own. Over time, your mate deliberately causes more and more distance between the two of you whenever you question their behavior…
Surprisingly enough, one of your mutual associates says something to you that lets you know that your mate has been trying to seduce them behind your back. Another associate informs you that your mate has been talking to others about things that you confided in your mate about that should have been kept a secret. You immediately confront your mate about this. Your mate denies all accusations to the extreme. They try to make this mutual associates look like a liar. Your mate tells you they have never tried to seduce a particular mutual associate, although you have witnessed first-hand for yourself how your mate seems to be extra charming towards them when they thought you were not looking…
When you confront your mate about telling your mutual associate what was supposed to be private between the two of you, your mate tries to make it seem like you were the one that told them when you know in fact you did not, and then proceeds to tell you about all the private information these associates shared with your mate. In the midst of your mate trying to defend themselves, they periodically slip and tell on themselves, without being aware that they are, which confirms everything that was said about your mate as being the truth. When you point this out to your mate, they try to retract whatever they have said as if they never said anything at all…”
Sociopaths are notorious for causing division among mutual associates. They love division if there is something to be gained from it. Their motive for gain could be anything from money to sex, and from drugs to someone who could be an accomplice in helping them destroy your sanity, your reputation, and even your life. For example, If you have had a riff with one of your mutual associates whom the sociopath thinks they can gain something from, they try to step in between the two of you and play both of you against one another.
They do this to cause more tension in whatever environment you and your ex-associate may share. They immediately search for your ex-associate and feed the fire by telling them fabricated stories about how badly you have been treating the sociopath when it was really the sociopath who has been treating you badly, how badly you have been talking about them behind their back when it was really the sociopath who has said all those things to you about them, and will even go as far as acting all of this out with you in front of them just to make their lies look legitimate. They will try to show your ex-associate their loyalty to them verses you in order to gain their trust by telling them either some or all of your secrets, then afterwards will go behind their back and tell you some or all of theirs. They offer to be of whatever service they can to your ex-associate in an attempt to seduce them behind your back. This is why the sociopath deliberately creates distance between you two; they need that space in order to be available whenever your ex-associate wants them to be without it seeming obvious to you.
The sociopath wants the division between the two of you to stay there permanently, especially if there is something to be gained from this for them, and will go out of their way to make sure you both will never reconcile again. They do this by baiting your ex-associate into doing sneaky deceptive things with them behind your back, such as dating, sex, etc. In other words, the sociopath will charm them in the same manner they have charmed you, and this is why the stories you hear about the sociopath seducing another mutual associate seem so familiar. They persuade your mutual associate to engage in acts that would otherwise be unforgivable by you should you ever find out about them. It also guarantees the sociopath will have a “weapon” to use against you whenever they want to emotionally hurt you, get you to bend to their wishes, or when they want that adrenaline rush of power from emotionally blackmailing you.
Beware if you are the one on the other end of this equation: if you are the ex-associate. Do not underestimate the level of deceptiveness the sociopath will stoop to in order to get you to fall for their lies to win you over. The sociopath will play on your anger, hate, jealousy, or whatever emotion you have towards your ex-associate. Do not under any circumstances get too close to the sociopath; they will use any instances of interaction with you as blackmail later on. Just the same as your ex-associate was deceived into believing the sociopath’s lies, so will you be. You are no exception.
Remember: if it seems too good to be true, chances are it probably is…
(to be continued…)
© 2013 Learus Ohnine